brooding

feeling down and betrayed for no reason at all. haven't felt this lonely for months. and i wonder why feel this way now? not PMS 'coz it's been two weeks already after my period. sinister thoughts that have been haunting me all along...oh please stop! i can't go on like this. this is not helping me and my kool. pressure on kool has to stop. kool needs a break. gotta do something out of my routine...

am i just getting bored? of what? maybe i need a new job. and a new environment. new boyfriend? nahh! forget it. a fling? pwede... NO! i can't. i live by the golden rule. and i'd die if kool cheated on me!

ugh! i hate this moment! makes me want to reach my phone and call my unsespecting baby. gotta make this stop!