taken

words failed to describe your radiance
illuminated by the glorious sun
you walked towards me with a becoming charm

completely unprepared for what was to come
i stood still and let the wind blew by
electrifying everything your gaze fell upon

how have i missed this kind of power
the one that sparks life in every atom
of desire, of hope, of love

was i ready to succumb to your immeasurable force,
abandoning everything that i was
just to be swayed by your magnificence?

no, perhaps in a different lifetime
when we were both guiltless and unattached
then, and only then, can we freely fool around.

fear

"i must not fear. fear is the mind killer. fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. i will face my fear. i will permit it to pass over me and through me. and when it has gone passed, i will turn the inner eye to see its path. where the fear has gone, there will be nothing. only I will remain."

- Bene Gesserit Proverb
Dune by Frank Herbert

romeo, romeo

where art thou, my romeo?

am i to grieve for the silence that envelopes you?

or rejoice for it bears the seal of thy love for me?

my heart bleeds to see you...

brooding

feeling down and betrayed for no reason at all. haven't felt this lonely for months. and i wonder why feel this way now? not PMS 'coz it's been two weeks already after my period. sinister thoughts that have been haunting me all along...oh please stop! i can't go on like this. this is not helping me and my kool. pressure on kool has to stop. kool needs a break. gotta do something out of my routine...

am i just getting bored? of what? maybe i need a new job. and a new environment. new boyfriend? nahh! forget it. a fling? pwede... NO! i can't. i live by the golden rule. and i'd die if kool cheated on me!

ugh! i hate this moment! makes me want to reach my phone and call my unsespecting baby. gotta make this stop!

sin city

sin city is one of the best films that i've watched this june. well of course on top of them all is batman begins. :) the film made me appreciate the comics more than before. i have a soft copy of its comics and if you're interested, just post your e-mail in the comment section. ;)

i wish...

today, we had this general assembly about the government's rationalization plan. the rationalization plan aims to make the government service effficient and effective at an affordable level, in an accountable way. part of the process of rationalization is to review the current functions of each agency, each division, and each employee. if your job was considered redundant, you're position will be dissolved. and you could choose whether to remain in government service or avail the separation/retirement incentives.

how i wish for my position to be redundant! if it happens, the government would have to pay me 50k plus my pag-ibig refund, plus, plus, plus. i would keep the cash as savings because i don't have any as of this moment or invest it in a business venture that i really, really like such as fruit shakes, fashion accessories, comics, pasalubong center, ice cream shop, and tacos. then i could apply and get a job in an international or multinational company and earn a bigger sahod than what i am receiving right now.

heeheehee

it was just a dream. walang masamang mangarap. =)

but then my world crumbled because my boss just confirmed that my position will never be affected by this rationalization plan. hmmpp! i no longer like to stay here. i'm so bored. i want a more challenging job. a job where i wouldn't have the time to surf the net leisurely just like what i am doing right now. i want a job where i would get pressures from bosses for a deadline or something to that effect. and of course i want a 25,000 or more remuneration per month for that challenging job!

does anybody know where i could get a job like that? or an open position where i could apply? please tell me if you do coz i am dead bored over here.

nice prayer

Forgive Me When I Whine
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Today, upon a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair.
and wished I was as fair.

When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as she passed, she passed a smile.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 legs, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it'd do no harm.

And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
It's nice to talk with folks like you.
You see," he said, "I'm blind."

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 eyes, the world is mine.

Later while walking down the street,
I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what to do.

I stopped a moment and then I said,
"Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word.
And then I knew, he couldn't hear.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 ears, the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I'd go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine.


~Author Unknown~