corny (giggles)

we watched Phantom of the Opera last night. on our way home i told hoseal that christine is one lucky girl coz she's loved by two men (let's just forget the fact that one of them is a madman for ka-cornihan's sake, k?) even after her death. but then i realized, why would i need the love of two me when i already have my hoseal's love? (giggle) and i hugged him tightly.

then he said, "pwede namang more than one ah. the one-is-to-one love affair is just a social construct." i reacted quite violently with his answer. i hate it when the 1:1 relationship is challenged. then he followed it up with the "multiple universe ek-ek". he said, "malay mo, in the other universe, we could be in a more complicated relationship. nagkataon lang na dito tayo nagsimula."

is he trying to tell me something? hmmp! wala nang subtleties and fishing-fishing questions! i asked him, "are you happy in this universe? are you happy with me?" but of course i asked the question with a void-of-feelings tone. parang kaibigan lang na nagtatanong sa kapwa nya kaibigan ng isang bagay na hindi makakaapekto sa kanilang relasyon.

and he answered, "Yes" in the same tone but with sparkling eyes and a full of love hug. (is it real or is it just my imagination? joke lang, it's true) syempre kilig to death naman ako! hihihi

hayy, life is so beautiful! :)

being normal and human

to date, i've been in a relationship for 7 years, 8 months and 17 days. he's my first (and only) love and i am his (walang kokontra!). together, we have gathered a lot of beautiful, magical, and spiritual moments to cherish. we've also encountered a lot of trials and difficulties but managed to face them all unscathed.

for all those years, i have made him the center of my life. i didn't join any organizations in college because i wanted to spend all my free time with him. i never got the chance to expand my circle. i never got the chance to talk to other people but his friends and mine. but i am happy with it. and during those years i expected the same from him.

but these past few months i started asking myself questions like, "what would i be if we hadn't met at such an early age?"..."what does it feel like to flirt or date other men?"..."do all men kiss the same?"...questions that i do not know if i would be able to answer. questions that popped up only when a single girlfriend tells me stories of her escapades and crushes. or when a gorgeous and smart guy took notice of my presence.

and then i wondered why i hadn't asked those questions before. not that i have plans of trying those things now, i was just wondering why only now? was it because of what happened last october? or was it just that i was too enthralled by hoseal's charms before to notice other men? he used to tell me that my beauty overshadows every beautiful thing in this world. he's pretty sweet, noh? hihihi (giggle).

enyweis, i asked myself what was i thinking of? why ask? why wonder? and i begn wondering if it somehow affected my love for hoseal? -- surely, it didn't. or was it the other way around? -- Definitely NOT! so, why?

ahh, i was just being normal and human. just like my roommates. just like my girl friends. just like hoseal. -- we talked about it before, and the feeling is mutual.

i hated it. i hated being normal. why can't i just live a fantasy life like before? why do i have to be just like everybody else? it brought complications in my life. it challenged everything i used to believe in.

but, it freed me. it freed us both. it made my trust for him complete. and the freedom we have right now is very good for our relationship. it helped me grow into a more mature individual (or so i hope). and it definitely made us stronger! :)

foreign client

i'm currently assisting a Belgian client do his research on the Philippine exports of medicinal plants. he is soooo cute! he's got hazel eyes, tall, and lean body. and he knows what he's talking about.

wala lang. i am just looking for an outlet of my kilig. coz i don't want it to show. hihihi

kool -> wag ka magagalit baby ha? naku-cute-an lang naman ako eh. ;)

horn blowing incident

nakakairita ang mga drivers (lalo na yung mga nasa private and airconditioned cars) na busina ng busina ng pagkalakas-lakas sa mga jeeps na nasa unahan nila! sila ang mga taong walang pakundangan sa mga taong napeperhuwisyo sa paligid nila. kung may powers lang ako gaya ng mga ae'sedai, babalutin ko sasakyan nila ng one power para sila lang ang makakarinig ng mga busina nila hanggang sa tuluyan na silang mabingi! pati na rin ang mga smoke belchers na yan! sana sila na lang ang malason ng kanilang mga ibinubugang usok at ng mawala na sila sa mundong ito!

tulad ng nangyari sa akin kagabi! gusto kong ibato sa pagmumukha ng driver ng van ang dala kong pizza dahil sa inis sa busina nya. kaso baka may baril ang mokong. hehehe. ayokong mamatay sa ganoong paraan, noh!

bakit ba hindi na lang tanggalin ang mga businang yan! kung mawawala yan, matututong mag-ingat at maging cautious ang mga motorista sa daan. mababawasan pa ang noise pollution sa mundo.

Grrr!!! i think i'd die early because of my frustration that i have no supernatural powers to fight evil in this world.=( kawawa naman ang mga api...